Hey hey, everyone!! So, I am back. I took a long break from blogging and only focused on Instagram for the summer. I needed a break and was debating if I was going to continue to blog or just be done with blogging but I have decided to come back and make this is a priority in my life. When I first started blogging, I did it as a way to express myself, and then along the way, I lost myself. Actually, I decided to compete in Mrs. Texas and during that time, my focus was on being something that was not really me. I am a wild child and I thought I had to be something different, but in reality, that did not matter. After the pageant, I had a rough time. I am going to be completely honest here and say that when I did not make the top 10 at Mrs. Texas, it killed my spirits some. I truly believed I was going to be in the top 3, if not win it. But that was not the case. For the first time in a long time, I felt pretty low on myself. Then I started drinking more during the week and eating badly and did that most of the summer. Here I am 10 pounds heavier and finally about a month ago, I was like “WTF”!! Now, I cannot blame the pageant for any of this, those were my decisions.Those were my insecurities. If anything, the pageant made me share my past and go outside my comfort zone. It was what I needed at that time in my life. And I made a couple of amazing friends along the way, one of them being Mrs. Texas herself. If it was not for Mrs. Texas, I would not have made those friendships and for that I am thankful. But about a month ago, I realized that I had to find my happiness again. Side note – eating and drinking all the time does not make you happy, it actually makes things worse. Of course my family and friends provide me all the love, but this was something that I needed to find in myself. Before the pageant and the summer, I was the happiest I had ever been. I wanted that girl back. That was the day I decided to be me again and reminding myself daily how happy I am happy and what a wonderful life I live. And like that, I was back. Its funny what you can tell your mind to think. A couple of weeks later, I was in Vegas with some of my best friends and I was me again and they loved it. I remembered making people laugh and I was feeling like myself again. Since then I ventured into sharing the real and raw Heather on Instagram and the response has been more than I could have imagined. I have had friends even saying I need to start a YouTube channel. I guess I was scared of being the real me, because I did not want to let anyone down but in reality I was only letting myself down. Now that I can finally be me again, I truly feel amazing and happy. Plus, I got my eyelash extensions back and that always makes a girl happy. ha! But really, I am back and will be not just sharing random outfits with you but real life shit. After all, we are all just living the best life we can, why not be in this together. I hope you will stay with me along the way, I am sorry I have been absent but I am ready to share the real me, the crazy me, the Heather2.0. xo!!